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Name: maricris
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| Ba-Ba-Ba-Baby, Oh you ain't seen nothin' yet....
Theme song for tonight. God helped me see a number of things tonight. One is...He really provides. Duh, right? No wait - listen....er read.
Long story short, BoA took $70 away from me and no amount of crying and tears helped me get it back. But somehow, during that week, God gave it to me. I just realized it too, that's the funny thing. He gave me $50 from my ninang and $20 from my aunt....$70 lost and $70 regained. That's PERFECT!!
Next, He assured me that He's listening. I don't know how, but I was just affirmed tonight that everything's going to be alright. Some of my panic has gone away, so now there are a few things I don't need to think about for a while. Adoration time was fun, I got carried away with time which is a nice thing. I was able to just sit and discern, and for once I actually felt like I was listening to Him! I actually got answers, which is rare. Is it my prayers or yours that are making it work?? No babble from me, just Him talking - me listening - and as soon as I leave....His plan was already in affect! Is this the secret I could have used a long time ago? The "Up Up Down Down" of my life that could have given me just a few more lives to live?
Finally, I feel at peace. I feel the prayers of my soul brothers and sisters and angels - my eternal prayer warriors. I have moments when I'm losing grip, but the Jesus-steroids start to kick in as soon as I seek out for prayers. Thank you, I totally feel them and know it's what's getting me through my rubble. It gives me hope for a bright future. In all things I pray about, in all things I discern - I know I am following the will of God if I find peace. Even the slightest bit of uncertainty or doubt shows me that whatever I'm doing might not help me but rather hurt me. Only when I'm at complete peace, without a doubt in my mind, do I know I'm doing the will of the Father. That is when I find happiness. Some decisions I have recently made, Jesus has granted me peace.
It's been a crazy day. Day 1 of my desert, a time for Christ and myself. He's got crazy up His sleeve, so now it's just a matter of being patient. I will accept what He has placed before me and say "Amen, so be it."
And to this, Jesus sings to me, "You ain't seen nothin' yet!" | | |
| We're taught that when we point a finger at someone, we're really pointing four at ourselves.
If there's anything I've learned, it's that I blamed a lot of my misery on someone who's not completely guilty.
Four fingers have been pointing at me this whole time.
With realization comes healing. With mercy comes freedom. With God comes love.
Joy is the result.
I can't wait to get there 
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| He winked at me and had this smile as to say, "I got your back."
Now I feel as though time will be standing still for EONS til he comes back and explains what that was all about. I mean the analytical part of me thinks I know what could possibly be coming. But the realistic-borderline-pessamistic part of me doesn't want to think about anything and just let things fall in my lap.
It feels similar to that time I thought I saw a present for me before Christmas only to find out it was for someone else. Or maybe it feels like that time where I saw a present for me before Christmas....period.
I don't like ruining surprises for myself, so I'll just pretend he didn't wink and will continue to immerse my days with workloads of excel spreadsheets, interoffice webchats, and a tall chai tea latte.
As much as I like seeing what could become of my life, I take pleasure in the time it takes for things to unfold. Though the anticipation may take one second longer, the outcome becomes a little bit sweeter. | | |
| "It could all be so simple, but you'd rather make it hard. Loving you is like a battle..." ~ Lauryn Hill in "Ex Factor"
The rest of this song is irrelevant to how I feel, but this line keeps on going on in my head. I love Jeff Abad. For as much as we fought for the six years we were YFC Counterparts, he really has been the greatest Pastor and Protector for me. 
Jeff is in my life because He really lets the Holy Spirit move through him, and God knows I'll listen. When he was here last week he said, "You know - God created us as simple people. We really just make things more complicated."
I love it because I couldn't agree more. So since then, I hear Jesus say, "Maricris - it could all be so simple, but you'd rather make it hard. Loving you is like a battle..." (haha But only I end up with scars?) Oh man, thank God He loves me no matter how hard I try to build a wall. I laugh because I picture myself building it with these heavy, heavy bricks, and immediately He just flicks it away with the bat of an eye. In frustration I try to keep building, but just as quickly - He destroys.
Ah, I love Jesus, a true friend who never gives up. Life REALLY can be as simple as 1+1, we just like multiplying, subtracting, and square rooting (I made up the term) the answer.
Living in the moment '09 haha. Thanks, Heffy!
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| So I see on Facebook that my 11-year-old cousin's status changed to "in a relationship." Of course I had to comment and ask if it was true and who it was. She messages me his name and says "yes, it's a boy from my class". Then we talk on AIM. She asks me what my boyfriend's name was and I just laughed and said, "When I find out who he is, I'll tell you his name haha. I don't have one." Here's the kicker: "Why not, you're older than me." blow. Hahahahaha. I couldn't stop laughing, it was just an amazing train of thought! So true, I'm older and if SHE has a boyfriend, why don't I? Ahhhh I love it! I LOVE the innocent minds. It brought me back to when I was her age and had my first boyfriend. I remember finding out he liked me so I asked him out. Yes, I was a very forward female back then. My mom gave me this whole lecture and said, "I hope he asked you out the proper way" (which in sixth grade you didn't even know there WAS a proper way!! I mean it was a big deal to have him even talk to you face to face!!) Haha anyway, so of course I felt bad so I asked him, "Hey - if I didn't ask you out, would you have asked me?" He said "yes!" So I said, "Ok then ask me out." Haha I laugh just remembering my request. Ohhhhhh man. He asked and I said yes, then we broke up a few days later because we both liked someone else. No tears, no heartbreak - it was just something that passed. I miss those innocent times. It was so...simple. | | |
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